February 2012
11 posts
A Big Middle Finger to the Creator of This Day
I swear I was doing fine the whole day. Then when 8 hit, ALL of my roommates left the apt to go on their dates for the night. Thats when it effin’ hit me…
I’m not big on these types of things but I guess just not having much stress makes these types of days that much harder to avoid. Heh this is the first time that my roommates are all doing something on valentines day. I mean...
Dreams//Sleep Paralysis
I’ve been having a lot of Dreams lately. It’s almost a bit crazy. Like a fantasy world where you don’t really understand what exactly is happening or why it is happening. The scary thing about it though is that amidst these various dreams I’ve been having, I had the beginnings of sleep paralysis. (Thank goodness I know when it’s about to start and how to get out of...
Concept of Firsts (continued)...
So this weekend is over and well… It was one big blast of craziness and excitement.
Some firsts that were accomplished: 1. Hanging out with MT friends and watching their excited expressions on their faces when they saw me hecka drink or smoke for the first time. 2. Hang out/smoke on the rooftop of my friend’s place that had a GORGEOUS view of Berkeley/Oakland. (Think of that place...
The Concepts of Firsts...
The idea of firsts is a seemingly important concept to us. Don’t you remember a lot of your firsts? First crush, first boyfriend or girlfriend, first experiences, etc. Something about the adrenaline rush and anxiety it gives us, the empowering feeling you’ll have afterwards or the sheer act of mustering all the confidence you have to actually try something new, sticks with us. It...
RESPECT
Everyone has their interpretation of this word. Whether it be to show an act of veneration towards someone, to abide by one’s rules, or to simply not talk out of line. While the meaning of this words gets drowned out by people’s interpretation. Think about the basic fundamentals of what this word means.
RE + SPECT = AGAIN + LOOK
I was told this by a fellow classmate of mine who...
Morning Melody...
Clean up, Clean up, getting rid of friends (that) don’t care. Clean up, Clean up, cause you didn’t do your share. :)
Cutting Ties and Burning Bridges
They say be careful of it. But quite frankly, if I ever had to question the quality or strength of these ties or bridges, then I’m definitely sure I can cut, burn and replace it with someone better.
Call me selfish, call me cocky, but c’mon now you’ve reached a place where I don’t see you worth it anymore.
(These people may or may not know who they are. Its the beauty...
January 2012
14 posts
Watchwheresmykey:
Nice.
umm. my day has just turned a lot brighter thanks to this talented musician :)
“If you’re absent during my struggle, don’t expect to be present...”
You really don't know what you got...
Until it’s gone.
[But in an optimists point of view]
You can just replace it or fill the void with something better :)
Exhausted Friendships
When you hang out with a friend so much cause you thought you were really close that you end up no longer being on the same wavelength with each other… and then you merely become acquaintances.
It’s an oh so common thing… it sucks.
Now that school has restarted...
I already see an increase in tumblr posts.
“I have NEVER been like this. I literally went from buzzed to unconscious. I...”
– Tiffany Ho
After Looking Back at my Tumblr Posts from the...
I found some pretty funny posts…
“Mark stop going for the crazy ones and go for me!” -anon
“face it Mark, when you’re intoxicated you are a complete slut”-anon
“(after my fortune is told) great, once again I’m single and everyone around me is having fun…”
My many many poser musician pictures…
Endless rants about...
It's hard to think about...
People you were better off not knowing or becoming friends with.
But too bad we made the decision to, we gotta live with the consequences of our choices.
The time when...
You close your eyes, take a deep breath and re-listen to a live set recording of an artist at a specific event you attended and it just transports you back to that exact moment. — Utter bliss. :)
Since When Did...
Attention turn into Kindness
Kindness turn into Friendship
Friendship turn into Closeness
Closeness turn into Affection
Affection turn into Complication
Complication turn into Disagreements
Disagreements turn into Distance
Distance turn into Detachment
Detachment turn into Loss…
Since when..?
“Do it because you truly want to. Not because someone else tells you to…”
Mind Dump: The Beginning-of-the-year-Optimist...
-Why do we only get motivated when we feel like its a new chapter starting? -I wish I could stay motivated 24/7 -It’s funny how I always do better during the even years, and go into a heavy slump on the odd years. -Thank goodness it’s an even year… -I’ve been to the gym for 1.5-2 hours 6 days of the week this past couple of weeks that I’ve been home. I feel great -I...
December 2011
18 posts
New Year's Challenge: Day 6 - Things You Want to...
-My Fitness Level (I want it to increase) -My Dependency Level (I want it to decrease) -My Relationship Status (oddly, I want to have one) -My View of People (I want it to get better)
-Got tired to think about more… and It seems like #8 is the same thing… Gnite-
New Year's Challenge: Day 5 - A Picture of...
This was literally taken at 12:05am on 1/1/11. - I wish I could experience this day again… Gah, it was such a fun night.
Damn You Communication! You're a Tricky One...
It’s hard to believe that it took 22 years for me to get a good understanding of the concept of communication. While I can’t write a book about it, I feel like I’m starting to understand what it is.
I’m starting to realize how important, necessary, and delicate communication is.
Good Communication has potential to lead to lasting relationships. Lack of Communication has...
I swear this is my last post for today.
I just wanted to bring this option back…
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New Year's Challenge: Day 4 - A Letter to Someone...
Dear Friend(s),
It’s been a while. It’s a bit awkward to write this mere letter to you to try to reconnect and see how you are. My intention isn’t just because I need something from you, or well maybe it is. My intention is to reach you because I want our old friendship back. I miss it. I miss the the times we’d laugh, the times we’d empathize with each other, the...
New Year's Challenge: Day 3 - My New Year's Plans
I haven’t made any. All I know is that I plan to be a different person. Like the new me or hate the new me, just know I’ll be different.
New Year's Challenge: Day 2 - 6 Photos from the...
Photo 1: TAO Photo 2: The day I got my first piercings Photo 3: Prince of Singkil Photo 4: Graduation Photo 5: Last Sleepover before Anthony moved back home Photo 6: My (fake-smile) 22nd Birthday
New Year's Challenge: Day 1 - 10 Things I Did This...
1. Graduated from the #1 Public University in the Nation - Go Bears! (August 12, 2011)
2. Got my ears pierced. - (February 20, 2011)
3. Got closer to my parents. - (Ongoing)
4. Did a Double-Axel across Greek Theater during CNR Commencement (May 15, 2011)
5. Introduced friends to new experiences. (July 15, 2011 & September 3, 2011)
6. Went to my first concert of a band I hold dear to my...
My First Tumblr Challenge
So I’m going to cheat and just catch up to day 4 today so I can finish on New Year’s Eve…
Something I Learned About Aging
Many of us reminisce about the past saying, “When I was (insert so and so age)” and some even say “I wish I was (insert so and so age).” And according to Morrie from Tuesdays with Morrie, we need to move on from it and experience the age we are now. We all have experienced what it was like to be 5, 10,13,18 and (for some) 21. No matter how much we like or dislike the...
The Moment When...
your dog climbs up to your bed and wants to cuddle with you and asks that you rub his belly…
Damn, he never asks for much, never judgmental, always forgiving, checks up on you when you’re sick, has a sense of humor, protects you when someone is hurting you, knows how to make you feel special, and is ALWAYS loyal…
Though we have a species barrier, we’ve gotten through it...
Mind Dump #?: Before-I-Leave-the-Bay-for-Home...
-I’ve been waiting to go home for so long -I’m slowly getting over this slump I’m having -I’m excited to see my family this break -It’s funny how facebook seems to know who’ve you’ve been drifting from and who your new group of friends are… -I struggle with not caring for others, but I keep telling myself I don’t -I can’t let go of the...
Backfire
Instead of writing on Tumblr my random ass feelings, I started to write in my personal moleskin journal for quite sometime now… However, as I continue to write and get my thoughts out on paper or merely clear my mind via a “mind dump”, I tend to write more about the negative aspects of my life which then feeds that negative energy within me that results in a piercing sword...
A Random Unposted Post
Me: :hands clyde a mini sparkling cider bottle::
Julius: ohhh that's so cuuuute! it's tumblr worthy if a little baby drinks it... just like clyde's swag baby posts:
Me: but we don't have a baby :(
Julius: ::point's a Jefferey L.:: we have him
Me: O_O brilliant...
And just like that...
I am unemployed…
Who knew that when you stop caring, you become a lot happier. Well at least, this is feeling true to me right now… (Haha almost like that scene in spiderman 2(?) where Peter stops being Spiderman and sees cops chase after a burglar but he eats his hot dog instead of doing anything about it.)
I was told yesterday in class that, “Everything in life is temporary.” If something is...
The sad realization...
when something changes so much that it breaks weekly hangouts, monthly get-togethers and annual traditions…
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For the first time in all 4 years living in FAB, we didn’t have our annual Christmas Potluck. A time to invite friends we became close to that year, dress fancy, share food, play games, get inebriated, study, and of course, take lots of pictures.
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Damn, I guess things...
November 2011
6 posts
Social Media Halt
I’m putting things on hiatus. Taking time to do some necessary self-evaluation. For those of you who need to be in contact with me, you should know other means to. If not, you can do some research of your own.
My Facebook and Tumblr are on temporary hiatus.
For some of you who do know:
I’m far from being better but I’m getting on the path to wellness, so please be...
A Massage Therapist's Dilemma
While I do love giving massages, I feel as if that’s the only way for me to see old faces…
It’s scheduled, they usually don’t flake for the opportunity to receive one, and they leave feeling better than when they came, and people usually want to see me again for more. Who wouldn’t want one?
But when I don’t offer to give a massage and just hang out: 1. Things...
“In the end, don’t rely on your friends. The only people who won’t...”
– Tiffany Ho
"Do you think we will still be friends in the...
I find myself saying this to a lot of people cause quite frankly, I find it a legitimate question.
Typically the general response I receive is, “OF COURSE!! WHY WOULD YOU SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT?!?” While I do agree we will still be friends, maybe the better question is, “How good of friends will we be in the future?”
I’d like to say my skating friends are the...
Heed my warning...
College does NOT prep you for the real world.
That is all…
October 2011
3 posts
